there's a new experimental feature called user tags that allows you to set custom bits of text that only you see for any user and one of the options is to have it also keep a running tally of the total number of up/downvotes you've given that user, this is a voyager thing not a lemmy thing, so i can just manually edit the value of a user's tally to whatever value i want including negative values.
for a normal user downvoting someone would both send the downvote and decrease the tally but since voyager won't even let me downvote i can't do that.
sounds like depression with extra steps