Thanks for the kind words!
Yes, I did get into SMART for a time. I found that it was easier to just go to AA since I didn't feel like going through the hassle of maintaining a digital form and having to print it out every time I had to show it to my probation officer.
There have been a lot of successful lawsuits contesting the legality of mandating AA through the courts, in fact, no lawsuit has lost to date. I would have loved to contest it as well, but honestly I live in a small town and the police and courts here are the type to hold a grudge, so I didn't want to draw any unwanted attention. But yeah, it is most definitely a religious organization, no matter how much they try to maintain they aren't.
I had a similar experience myself, I was desperate and was looking for a way out. I initially joined before being mandated by the court, and for a little while I was on board, but after a year or so I got fed up with the methodology and rhetoric of AA. About six months before the mandate I was pretty much through with AA, and then I got a DUI and was forced to go. Which just further brought out my distaste for AA.
Luckily I'm just about finished with the court requirements. I only have a few more weeks of outpatient, and was told by my PO that once I completed the outpatient I'd be off of probation. So, very happy it'll be over soon.
The positive thing was that I did take a break from abusing alcohol and resassessed my relationship with alcohol. I don't intend to stay abstinent, but I do plan on having a healthier relationship with drinking and being mindful of when and how much I do.
