Daily Discussion Thread: 🤧🥹🌼🌾🌲 Wednesday, August 28, 2024
Daily Discussion Thread: 🤧🥹🌼🌾🌲 Wednesday, August 28, 2024
Shout out to the legend trying to intimidate me in his new Audi this morning. Bruh I'm in a shitbox hatchback missing more paint than I have emotional issues, you really think I'm scared of you hitting my car? Its 6am, windy AF and I'm doing the limit. The threat of you scratching your +100k car against my 7k (If that!) car aint the threat you think it is.
18Just took Sammi for her ultrasound - poor love hadn't been herself all yesterday to the point where I phoned the vet again - they suggested admitted her overnight but there wouldn't have been anyone there so I decided to keep her home. Wise choice - the wind woke us both up at 3 and she was straight off with the snuggles and purrs and this morning she was demanding breakfast - unfortunately I couldn't give her it since it's a fasting procedure.
Now having a coffee and cake in Mentone while I wait for the school traffic to clear.12Outcome of the ultrasound with Sammi - no obvious tumours or obstruction. Enlarged lymph nodes in her stomach, so they want to proceed with the other ultrasound and take some samples. Meanwhile she's home alert and hungry.
In other news there was a three vehicle stack in the middle of Main Street Mordialloc on the way home. Hopefully it's cleared by now...10Well... it's in. The assignment is in - but I feel so thoroughly muted about it because it turns out my supervisor had to go through what I'd written with a lot of red
inkpixels and rewrite a chunk of it. He wasn't at all trying to put me down, if anything just help me so I'd get this across the line, but I feel like I have such a long, long, long way to go and I might have bitten off more than I can chew. I really feel quite low about how limited my brain capacity is compared to 5 years ago. Would love to have some kind of win this week to feel better about myself :(10really long safety+organisation+life+mental health uodates
Today's the 50th day since I returned and found all the damage and theft of my belongings. They've just about all been replaced now, there's a couple of cables I've noticed missing, and one of the replacement things didn't include a cable, but that's about it.
They installed that gate thingy, but forgot to get the parts they need to make it actually work. It's on un-detachable gears and pulleys, so it's basically stuck open and doesn't do anything. They measured all the door frames (most of them are cracked from where he fucked around with the locks), but apparently the tradie man forgot how to measure properly, so he came to redo it today.
ALLEGEDLY someone will be out to install new door frames and such tomorrow, but there's probably no guarantees on that. They seem confused about if that's actually happening or not. Apparently they're installing proper security cameras tomorrow, and apparently on Friday the locksmith will come past to fix the shed lock.
AFAIK the deadbolt for the front door was knocked back, but it's not that bad I suppose as the screen door essentially functions as an external deadbolt. I always lock that, so it's fine. I'm worried that once that change the doors and door frames though, they'll also change the locks to shitty ones that locksmith referred to as "night locks". They're easily opened by shimmering a butter knife down the side, or honestly even giving it a firm shoulder (it doesn't even damages the lock, because it barely sits in there!). Don't know what in house safety that'll leave me, except to hope and prey they don't move another drop kick in.
The program manager has been on "unplanned personal leave" for 2 or 3 weeks at this point. Not sure what's happened, she was just here one day and then hasn't come back since. The "case management practitioner supervisor" has been talking at me a lot. She gives kind of assistant manager vibes. Doesn't have a whole lot of say in anything, so compensates by having little ego and power trips. The bloke above her, the regional manager, doesn't seem that bad kind of, he's so far maintained a professional demeanor with me, but he's not too keen on doing very much and acts a lot more like a penny pinching CEO than anything else.
The org case manager took an "unplanned half day" on Monday, and no showed to a meeting we had scheduled. I, along with the 11 other people attending the meeting, just had to chill in the teams waiting room (which I super wish allowed cross-attendee conversations), and after about 15 minutes I ended up being the one to tell everyone the meeting had been cancelled and telling them they could leave. Even though I wasn't running the damn thing.
On the DL, it seems that most of my care team and workers are all pretty pissed about the way things are running. Apparently they cancelled another meeting a week prior with 15 minutes notice.
I took to calling the "case management practitioner supervisor" (who seems to do more than supervise, and is temporarily program managing too), every single day about the security gate and other arrangements. I'm super pissed about it, it feels like they've kind of relegated my safety to concern number #45. There's still no active protection keeping me safe, and I'm still here on my own. It also feels horrific that the other dude seems to get off on intimidation more than anything else, and nothing's actually been done to stop that. The cops haven't followed up about him tearing up the lawn, or the theft and damage, the gate is still non functional, the gate still doesn't have a lock (besides my unapproved padlocks).
I still freak out and spiral into a panic everytime I hear a particularly loud motorcycle, and I check my cameras at every noise. I still have a constant fear that he's somehow inside the house, and I still wake up at 2 or 3am in a sweat with a looming sense of terror that somebody is standing over me.
In the last couple of weeks, I seem to have a lot of repressed rage that sometimes bubbles up. I'm usually able to keep it repressed, but every couple of days, something minor seeming will happen and ploop I'm in a blind rage. That was the main reason for taking my Lemmy break, I don't want to run the risk of that happening on some unsuspecting soul here. I'm seeing a psych weekly (her suggestion + child protection is paying the gap, and will pick up the rest of the costs for 6 months until I turn 18). It's helping, but the primary focus has been on other things, with this as secondary.
Tafe has been a useful distraction. Being completely dumbfounded about how their LMS works, and how different it is from high school has been a useful distraction from everything else. Besides that, I've been trying to throw myself into my projects, but some of them just annoyed me too much so I temporarily gave up.
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7Weather songs please
7I have shifted wake up time to 6am from 7. I enjoy the darker start to the day.
7Cat rambles
Melbcat got her antibiotics yesterday! Now I have to wrestle her (gently) to ensure she swallows the weird banana flavoured liquid instead of sneakily spitting it out. I am deeply unpopular for a few minutes afterwards (until it’s time to cuddle again).
If the infection reoccurs after this she may be referred to a specialist to check for underlying causes. I’m so glad I’ve maintained a bit of an emergency fund because if need be I will absolutely be getting a lift and going for it.
I’ve found an old smaller sketchbook + just a normal pencil sharpened in a standard way (both more portable) and am using it to scribble for art exercises. I’m also doing them as multiple tiny drawings on one page just so it doesn’t take forever to get the idea down, shade, draw precise lines or just finish. Also doing it while watching trashy video essays on youtube.
I really don’t have a lot of spare energy to create so trying to lose the perfectionism and just do easy structured doodles is probably the only way I could get anything done.
7The peregrine are back in the city. I think she has laid two eggs so far https://www.youtube.com/live/VLLNNTjaSEA?si=NIcrIT3OZVQUcPHr
7Update - there was a miscommunication and Sammi was booked for next Wednesday for her ultrasound. Fortunately they do have an in-house machine and one of the vets is very proficient in its use, so just waiting to hear the outcome of that.
Meanwhile took Zooks in later to see the senior vet as her ears have been rashy and he suggested (with Sammi) that it may have been gastro, and since she does like raw chicken... it's possible. Meanwhile I have to give Zooks eardrops for a week. Wish me luck...6that was a looong sleep
what a weird dream, I dreamt I went to some not famous fashion designer in Rio of all places to get a party dress. I chose something simple and elegant in sky blue.
5ugh. Severely disappointed with zero co now.
5well that was exciting
a tempest came through the north just as I was just coming home
of course I didn't have my raincoat on nor a hair tie.
5Traffic lights are down corner Sussex St and Bell St Pascoe Vale South, and police are directing traffic. Haven't seen police directing traffic for ages.
5Ew gross sleep. Not looking forward to work
5Surprisingly, the plants on the patio held up surprisingly well. One had been knocked out of its pot and ended up upside down (no clue where the pot is), but the rest are still there
Image ft. Plant reveal (even though like 90% of them are dead now 😔):
It's a bit chaotic. I inherited it all from the LT that moved out a few months ago. Unfortunately I'm still trying to figure out how to keep things alive and ended up killing most of them. Gonna do a spring clean next month though
5The Void is unimpressed with his diet. Both our knees are nastily niped
5I love this. baaaad logos
3WTF. I just saw the news about a man who poured a thermos of hot coffee on a baby.
3Got a recommend for a YT video "tiny home on wheels is stunning" 🤡
um, that's called living in your car 😫
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