Blog 2024-08-28
Blog 2024-08-28
Hello everyone,
Today I went to office and started thinking about how everyone in the office could harm me(they have done nothing that would make me think they are planing to harm me). but I cope up by just communicating with them. I ask "hey how are you", "what's the thing you are working on" and their replies always makes me calm. their sympathy towards me is what makes me functional in the office.
Funny. I'm very mentally ill myself, but never diagnosed with psychosis. I just had a minor nervous breakdown because I'm convinced my coworkers hate me and want to get me fired.
I wonder if that is "just" very thorough depression or could also be classified as a delusion.
Then again, I've never seen or heard anything that wasn't there, physically. Not sure if that's a hard requirement to qualify.
1When I "hear" something I know it's inside my head. It's like "I am thinking" those stuff and I do very often. Like thinking about past conversations again but slightly modified.
To be diagnosed as schizophrenic you don't necessarily need to have hallucinations. But don't take this as medical advice and find a professional.
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