Tbh I think if this genuinely happened and I just found out right now, I would just start walking and not stopping. I would think I'd be the most mindful and alert I have ever been in my life and I wouldn't want to waste that. I also imagine I would also probably be extremely nice to everyone. Like someone's walking in the rain or something and I'd just hand them the coat I was wearing for them to keep. It would look really weird lol but I think that's the kind of hyper-selflessness that you'd just do without even a thought if you knew you were about to die.
Thanks for asking this question btw it's very intriguing. It makes me wonder if it's even remotely possible to live each day like it's your last y'know.
Well im on the other side of the country from my wife. Also 8 hours from the nearest airport to get home.
I think i wouls drive the great Australian bite and write out my feelings and how much i love mt wife and friends, then sit on the bottom of Australia and watch the sun set off those cliffs then set the text to send after i die, (since i cant tell anyone ahead of time)
It would be lonely but i think cathartic too, just a chance to decompress from the world before the forever sleep
Triple-check that our mortage is paid off in the event of my death, so that my wife and children will have a place to live after I (sole breadwinner) am gone.
Probably the same I do already. Stare into one of the glowing rectangles in my home, waiting for it to end and being happy that I didn't selfishly put more humans into this grinder.
I would do everything in my power to make sure my family knows how much I love them. Not too worried about financial particulars etc. We're poor as fuck and all my accounts are jointly in my wife's name, so whatever resources there are she shouldn't have a problem getting at. I'm confident my brothers and her siblings would step up and help with our kids. My kids are old enough to miss me but young enough for it to probably not ruin their lives. They'd most likely be ok.
Regardless of the means of my demise, I'd slip away shortly before my time was up and drive to the police station or something.
First, I wouldn't tell anyone I was going to die, but I'd go see everyone who is important to me. Even if it was insanely inconvenient for them, I'd do it and tell them I love them. I'm sure it will make all of them angry I didn't say "I'll be dead in 24hrs" but that's now how I want to go out. Everyone crying and blah blah blah. Am I getting on your nerves because you love me but the new born is crying and I showed up unannounced? I know and that's okay. I'll probably smile fondly, give them a big hug and tell them I'll see them when I can. Then I'd get home and start writing. I'd write as much to every person I needed to. If I had anything to say at all, I'd say it. A lot of apologizing and explaining why I didn't say anything but I'd definitely put in a "if you feel bad by the way you acted towards me the last time we saw each other, fuck you. I don't remember being required to consider your feelings about my death. I went out the way I wanted, and I gave you one last memory of me being me. Not everyone standing around being an asshole and crying on everything." Then would elaborate in detail to each one individually what I will remember about them. What I want them to remember about me and who I was. Probably write about the good and the bad, but remind them every other paragraph they have nothing to feel bad for, that I know they loved me and I didn't say anything because I wanted my last time with them to be normal. It would take the majority of the time I have left. Then, idk. Probably depending on my mood in the hours before, I may go find somewhere secluded with a good view or pick one person and tell them so I don't have to go out alone. That one I don't think any person can say for sure till it happened. Hell, I might say fuck it and find anyone I can so I don't go out alone. But I've already faced some of this reality once and writing was the thing that I felt I needed to do most. To explain anything and everything. Don't leave anything up for debate or question. They will all have all the answers to all the questions within days of my death. No wondering this or feeling guilty for that.
I would spend the day with my loved ones reminding them of what great people they are and then passing with dignity. I do not fear death because the Buddhist philosophy taught me to embrace the here and now. Yesterday already happened and tomorrow is not a given. Today matters.
Celebrate, make sure there’s some legal framework for all my stuff to go to my younger brothers and then probably drink/smoke/do whatever drugs I can find to make the last few hours as nice as possible.
I lost the will to keep fighting a long time ago. I’m not actively hoping for death, but it’s not something I’d be unhappy about encountering.
Spend every minute of every second with my son and the people I love. This is like taking a cruise where you're never coming back but with the knowledge of when the cruise is leaving. That would be amazing.
steal someone’s credit card and go buy a bunch of weed (it’s legal here). after also eating a great meal, I’d go get high in Central Park and just walk around, enjoying the views until I died.
the person would report the card stolen and get the (relatively small) charges stricken/refunded, so I’m not worried about the ethics of that.
Carry on spending the weekend in peace. My gf and i had some amazing sex when we woke up this morning, went to the farmer's market, went to some cute shops, did cute gay stuff like holding hands while we walked all around our city. I'm content, for the first time in my life. Dying now wouldn't be so bad.
Play bladurs gate and continue on as normal. Maybe drink something nice, listen to my favorite song. It's not me I care about it's my partner who would be left wondering and without an income
There are a lot of old friends I don’t keep up with aside from major events because, life. I’d call them and tell them I love them because this would be a pretty major event. I’d like to see a few of them too but would prioritize finding ways to laugh and have fun with my family and immediate family.
Honestly, probably not too much. Eat some of my favorite foods, write letters to people I care about, listen to my favorite music. Hopefully be able to enjoy nature one last time. And maybe ingest some mind-altering substances.