I need to find my own path out of this shit

I am an introvert. I do most of my work in silence, so no one else will hear me unless it's absolutely necessary. And my work often involves doing some very dirty or very boring things that I think are cool or that make the world a better place. Ive found a very quiet and peaceful place in the woods, just perfect for the purpose I seek. I just have to find something else to keep my mind on track. And Ive already found what I like doing. Ive got a house to myself, a nice garden, a nice bike, and Im in a great physical and mental state. I recently came across some very intriguing posts on reddit and the comments are telling me something about this place that Ive never heard of before. I have this feeling that Id like to have a little adventure that would put me in a good mood. Maybe some wild mushrooms or an active campervan? Ive already been experimenting with some new things and this idea of a "hiking trail" sounded exciting. I posted the post to the subreddit, and a few minutes later got a response from this Redditor. Theyd heard of this "hiking trail" they wanted to share their own "hippie-camp" and theyd like to help me plan and organize the trip. They said they had already been on several of these trips and they wanted to share my experience to give other hikers a sense of what it was like. I was intrigued and immediately took them up on the offer. I set up an appointment and set the trip for a week. My best friend has been volunteering at the trail center this whole time and he said the trip would be great! We spent our days at the site exploring the forest, the trail, and the plants. It was an interesting trip and I wish I couldve stayed longer. We had a few drinks after that. I asked if I could grab a bite to eat. The Redditor kindly brought some crackers which were really good. I havent tried crackers in years, but the flavor combination with the mushrooms made me crave them. We ate at the trail head a few more times after that. After a while of eating, I was getting hungry again. I went to the bathroom and grabbed some bagel snacks. When I came back to the tent, I was sad and exhausted. I went outside to get some fresh air and a little nap. I sat in the hot sun for a while to try and unwind. I sat in my tent and thought about the trip and the trip and what I had experienced. Then I started to feel the urge to sleep. I went back inside the tent to get some fresh air and then I decided to just sleep in my bed. It was a nice quiet sleep and I laid down. When I woke up I looked at my alarm clock and saw that it was 5:28 AM. I thought about what the hell was going on. I decided to get up and go get dressed. I went outside the next morning. I went outside and found some fresh bagel bars and an extra sweater because Id forgotten them in the bag I brought in the morning. Then I went inside the forest and sat under the a rock toot, then I made dinner, I ate some marshmash for myself while I figured I drank some more eggs and then went to the bathroom and got dressed. When I came back home I sat under the hot sun to bed and decided to my room toed through a warm air and played some more. I made some marshmushrooms, then I decided to watch a nice anime while I ate some more while I then played some more then I decided toots. It was relaxing while I played the anime while watching it. After a while I decided Id watch more of it while I was eating some more of my favorite anime while I played more of my favorite anime while I played more of my favorite anime while I played more of my favorite anime while I played more of my favorite anime while sot|s then I played more of my favorite anime while I got horny. After playing some more anime while I went to sleep. It was a very relaxing while I decided to myself while doing some more of my favorite anime while doing some more of my favorite anime while eating some more anime while sot|e while sot|e and sot|e. I decided to close my eyes then I played some more of my favorite anime while sot|e. I was getting really horny. I played some more of my favorite anime while sot|e and played