18 days today, havent been looking at my phone which is good. going to meetings, things are going well, hope y'all are too
still kicking, 8 days. lots of coffee
i blew it gang sorry, day 19 have to reset. im not in control of my money and I saw an opportunity to sell something valuable to me for beer money. devasted. but it's not the end of the world. see you tomorrow for day 1
playing wotlk on a private server, only for a week cause im borrowing my mates computer but yep she's addictive, lvl 32 already
day 17 but I relapsed on world of warcraft, stayed awake for 36hrs playing drinking coffee, slept through the NA meeting lol
bit late buddy haha happy friday. im about 2hrs away from 2 weeks which is great cause fridays are a bit of a trigger but I get to think oh hey another week down
keep forgetting to check in but im still going, day 10
officially 1 week since i blew zeros at the hospital. see you all tomorrow👍
today was tough but i made it through. got a meeting in 30mins, day 6. been one week since I absolutely sent it and I swear im still hungover.
day 5, meeting tonight, silently hyped. iwndwyt
IM BACK. for good this time.
-trigger warning-too many to count last friday i drank 30 beers and 3/4 bottle of scotch, was generally belligerent and self injuring so the ambulance was called, I got restrained and woke up in a padded room still smashed punching the glass and screaming, crashed again and woke up in mhicu, mental health intensive care unit, sober now and realising where I was, I was on best behaviour.
place sucks. no telly, no books no radio, fights every few hours, super heavy furniture, big frownie face on the wall written in blood. I literally sat and watched the clock for over 9hrs during the 3.5 days.
ive got an AA meeting in 3hrs. IWNDWYT
morning all, day 16 have a good one
13 days. big anxiety and depression, too many coffee and cigarettes. supposed to be at work where I'll be surrounded by a couple hundred thousand litres of wine in tanks and barrels, plus i manage the warehouse where there's about 250,000 bottles of finished product. have to pass a breathalyzer at start and end of shift.
sounds like a dangerous place for an alcoholic to work but i can't stand the stuff. wouldn't last long in a brewery.
day ten first proper cravings and horrible gut feeling like impending doom but made it through the day.
woops v late. I need to set an alarm. day 10! first proper cravings today but pushed through and drove past 2 bottleshops. v proud of me. iwndwyt
i got my cat back from my parents too! it's been a non stop cuddle puddle :D
happy wednesday homies. still day 8, outta hospy, first day back at work, just got home, plum tuckered out. iwndwyt and see you all tomorrow :)