Daily Discussion Thread: Fri 24 Nov 2023
Daily Discussion Thread: Fri 24 Nov 2023
Welcome to the Melbourne Community Daily Discussion Thread.
Well it happened again.
About 15 yrs ago I was playing with my cat and I fell over and fucked my lower back / hip.. 2 yrs ago I fell off my bike and I could feel it almost unfucked my back (counter intuitive, but it rearranged something). Then.. when swimming in the ocean a few times straight after it felt like something had really changed.
Had a big stretch and there was an almighty 'clunk'.. something popped back in. It was extremely satisfying. Woke up to zero (0!) back pain. I've been dreaming of that 'clunk' ever since even though the back / hip was all good.
Anyway that 'clunk' happened again this morning.
Dreams do come true.
15It's 2am, I should be sleeping, and all I can think about is how absolutely awesome it would be to drive or work on one of the super long distance trains, like the ones across the nullabor or up north. I mean, probably not that awesome for most normal people, but I love trains, love being in the middle of nowhere, and hate people. Going on a 40 hour train ride through actual nowhere is genuinely a dream
11Both my references were contact today, one missed the call and will call back Monday. Not celebrating yet, but definitely getting closer to victory!
10Man I hate mornings after a big fight with my partner.
Turn Back Time plays whilst they sip their coffee....
10Just used a Container Deposit Scheme machine for the first time, easy and fast to use, quite fun actually. I got $7 back and now there's less to go in our home recycling.
9Just caught the neighbours' cat using butters' kitty litter that is not on my fren.. quite literally casually came in and took a shit.. that's not on my little fren I'm not standing for it and nor would bboi.
8TW Chronic pain, TMI medical issues, suicide.
Yeah, I'm pretty tough and try not to complain but this pain is debilitating. It has been for a very long time. It's been slowly and steadily worsening to the point I'm not really able to eat anymore, am in pain everyday like my guts are eating themselves and have gone from being borderline impacted at most times to constantly having the runs for no reason. Mostly bedbound at this point and the things I can do are severely diminished. This isn't even my main fucking disability. I am medically complex.
I've been seeking help for at least 15 years, closer to 20 now. I've taken the meds that are supposed to dull the pain. Had all the tests. I've done the liquid medical diets. Have admitted myself to emergency department repeatedly in the past, and have had drs/specialists be pretty rude and indifferent about it, telling me it's psychosomatic, or dismissing me as a drug seeker. I've been denied more tests by the gastroenterologists despite the last ones being 6 years ago and an important one being unsuccessful. Seeking a second opinion got me charged out the nose and handballed back. I've also been denied a J tube that would feed me abdominally.
This is unfortunately a common experience for chronically ill/chronic pain patients. But I'm going to have another crack at the hospital merry go round on Monday and hoping that having someone to back me up helps. Unfortunately Melbcat will have to go into temporary foster care which is so hard for me. (I can't explain to her what's happening, tell her not to be scared or reassure her that I'm coming back. And a run of bad luck means we weren't even able to get her to her vet appointment yet. Every single time we line one up something happens and it falls through.)
But this chronic severe pain and inability to eat is debilitating, it has been for a long time, and without being dramatic it is genuinely making me consider ending my life if it can't be controlled. I can't just keep doing this anymore.
I'm not expecting much though. The most likely outcome is waiting hours in the emergency department, experiencing more annoyed dismissive treatment, doing another round of tests just to find nothing, and going right back to trying to cope with and cover up the pain. Probably will have to come back here and tell you guys that nothing has been found or has changed.
I would undergo surgery if it would help but unfortunately it's high risk for poor results.
This is the disability/chronic pain experience I'm afraid, at least as a poor/public hospital patient. You eventually go in the too hard basket and start getting blamed. I don't know where to go to from here. There's a lot I want to live for but it's getting so bad that if it wasn't for Melbcat I would already have done it.
Ps. Please don't offer me suicide helplines. They're actually quite terrible.
8Hey green thumbs you might find this article interesting.
6My vacuum cleaner repair held and I have now finished the vacuuming. Miss Meow turned herself into Missing Meow for the duration, and is now demanding extra lap time and pats to make up for the trauma.
6I has rain and it is dispersing sheep poo into the soil that I put there yesterday I is smart
6Wildlife Update: I’m located under a bat flight path. They are currently travelling North to feed. The bats return home around 0515. My guess is they live around Yarra Bend Park.🦇🦇🦇
6Startrack, I hate you with every fibre of my being! Watched the little delivery person literally reach out their car window and put the "missed delivery" card in my mail box before speeding off when they saw me come out.
6Cats have has second breakfast and I'm on my second coffee.
6Finally back home after 104km of driving round town. I forgot how tiring this can get. Missed all the excitement of the m1 bullshit thankfully. But it was nice not being on my phone all day..
6I'd just like to take this moment to state that out of all the words for various meals taken at certain times of the day, my favourite one is "lunch".
It just sounds so satisfying, easy, relaxing, warm, rewarding and nutritious. Something you could really get your teeth into.
"Dinner", on the other hand, has an unnecessarily fussy sound. It should be replaced with "supper".
5new dishwasher day. Thank god. I didnt realize how much we relied on it. We're washing the big stuff by hand, but given limited drying space (and the fact that the dishwasher died with a full load of dirty dishes) it feels like we're never gonna catch up.
5Chooken is in the oven, I might relax tonight and do a jigsaw puzzle. I have a cool one of a map of Atlantis. 🤭
5Big stawm in Bendigo, headed our way. Lots of lightning.
5Finally some actual rain! The garden rejoices.
I followed up my fritter fiesta with a big batch of overnight oats - breakfast for the next two days plus 6 serves in the freezer.
I have cleaned the pet's water fountain and done a couple of minor repairs. I am very pleased with today's progress.
5Me: Does this bus have any suspension or is Bell Street Coburg bumpy as? Or is the driver kerb running? My bottom: same guy different haircut
Edit: speaking of bottom, someone put a curved piece of glass on one of the bus seats for someone to sit on. I removed it for safe disposal. Fuck that person.
5My little back garden has turned into a bit of a nursery, and as a result, there are a few young children screaming about the independence that's being forced upon them. There's also quite a few looking a little wet and upset by the current downpour, so I have propped the table tarp up a little so they may shelter.
4What the hell just happened to the weather? It was like 30 an hour ago and now my phone is giving me a "road weather alert"
3Dear Chef, I am in need of a midnight Kebab @baconmash@aussie.zone
3this is a nice tropical dew point
3I have just discovered the altitude slider on the windy.com wind display - goes up to 13.5 km. Whoowee! Would not want to be in a plane over NSW right now.
2Still no rain. I'll try going for a walk and see if that brings it on.
Edit: So far the sky has managed drizzle. Just enough to make the pavement damp.
2$7.90 for big mac meal and nuggets today
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