how's your week going, Beehaw

I appreciate doctors, but I have trouble communicating my thoughts/feelings, which sometimes leads to misunderstandings. After a recent procedure, I've been prescribed three new meds.

This is really exacerbating my anxiety because I'm always extremely hesitant to fuck with my stable "cocktail" (even though I'm not sure it's actually as effective as it should be) and it's difficult to explain this to some doctors.

I know these meds will help, but I get overly concerned about stuff like QT prolongation, so I'm just doing an ECG before I start because I probably need that peace of mind.

Also they're fucking expensive and there's no copay because fuck me, I guess. It's very frustrating. Like, things are a bit cheaper than they would be in the US (don't know how people deal with that shit there), but it still comes with the caveat that cost of living is higher here than the US, so it evens out anyway.

I'm sorry to hear that you are having a difficult time. I hear you and I know that all of this is just temporary. You will get through all of this.

I spent the last 2 days repairing my install of windows 11. I had attempted to uninstall the patch that was causing SSD failures. Patch seemed to uninstall fine... until suddenly it didn't.

Sunday, everything slowed to a crawl. Could only do basic tasks. After 16 hours of trying to fix it I think I have things back to a stable state.

After I was able to get a fresh install onto a USB and using that to install a completely clean windows, it worked. Or at least it seems that way. I think I transferred all my important documents. Or at least I really hope so haha

However this gave me enough of a kick in the ass to try and take backups and file organization more seriously. Going to be looking into various methods for backups now. Ideally the quicker I can back things up the better as it would encourage me to do it more frequently.

I spent the last 2 days repairing my install of windows 11. I had attempted to uninstall the patch that was causing SSD failures.
From what I understand, this mainly affected people with Western Digital/SanDisk drives (which, lucky me, I'm also using). I updated the firmware for the drive listed on the SanDisk site and I've run a few tests and things seem fine so far (I haven't bothered trying to rollback Windows itself, so we'll see if it sticks).
However this gave me enough of a kick in the ass to try and take backups and file organization more seriously. Going to be looking into various methods for backups now. Ideally the quicker I can back things up the better as it would encourage me to do it more frequently.
It seems like Kopia and restic are pretty popular open source options which work on all major operating systems.
Kopia has a GUI, but restic is (as far as I know) command-line only, so if that's important, just use whichever you feel comfortable with. I think you can schedule both to run automatically, so you won't need to worry much about doing it manually (I personally prefer to do it manually, but I've been bitten by that in the past thanks to my stubbornness here).
When it comes to full disk imaging (basically cloning your drive), CloneZilla is (IMO) the best option. RescueZilla is a more user-friendly frontend for that, which is what I use.
For a closed source option, Macrium Reflect is/was also okay in my experience, but I haven't used it in a while and I think they've limited the free option to an older version, though I might be wrong.
(Side note: I don't know how well the full disk imaging ones work when it comes to Windows systems encrypted with BitLocker. I know it used to be a bit complicated, but may have improved by now.)
- Thank you for all this information! I really appreciate it a lot. All my drives are western digital but 2 are ones that shouldn't be affected and a side drive is(thankfully no data loss yet). I'll have to go check for updates.
  This might be a silly question, but when you backup, do you need extra storage space 1:1 with whatever you're copying? Or does it compress the files somehow to keep those backups in a smaller form?
  I've always just kept copies of files stored across drives but I've never done a full backup before

Will start my semester after this weekend. Not ready. But at the same time, it's senior year, so... I'm happy it's almost over. At midnight, I start my graveyard shift. On Monday, will be doing onboarding for two jobs.

Now I'm just trying to figure out what to do today... Maybe walk around campus and enjoy the quiet.

good luck primscha! senioritis hit me hard in my senior year, don't feel bad if it comes for you, as well.
Good luck to you and wishing you the best.
- Thank you

I feel totally rudderless. Fourteen times now, since January, there seemed to be an offramp from solitary confinement. Each time, it falls through at the end.

I know from experience that it only takes one success, but this is even more disheartening than sending hundreds of resumes into the abyss, as these were all via networking.

Ugh, that sucks. I wish I had some sort of advice to offer, but everything in this country is so fucked. Rooting for you.

What a week!

First of all, I found this community! Brand new to Beehaw, fediverse, everything. Very exciting, very new, very unsure about how everything works but doing my best.

I also got told that I was successful at a job interview which I'm really happy about. Now it's just the awful part of waiting for all the official documentation - I hope it happens soon so that my brain stops playing tricks on me about it.

First of all, I found this community! Brand new to Beehaw, fediverse, everything. Very exciting, very new, very unsure about how everything works but doing my best.
Welcome! We're happy to have you here! If you know reddit, beehaw is just like our own mini-reddit with mods that are really good at nuking trolls the second they pop their faces up. Lemmy as a whole is like a bunch of other mini-reddits that can communicate with each other. You can go to other Lemmy servers (if they aren't blocked by beehaw admin) and participate in their communities using your beehaw account.
If you want to be a good community member, just comment on stuff that you see in the community! I can't speak for others, but when I post links, the one thing i want more than anything is comments, regardless of what you say. We're all just here to be kind and spark up fun and interesting conversations! If you get in a comment convo with a stranger and they start saying stuff that seems mean (even just a simply "fuck you"), all you gotta do is report it and that loser will be blocked within a day, but usually way sooner.
I also got told that I was successful at a job interview which I’m really happy about. Now it’s just the awful part of waiting for all the official documentation - I hope it happens soon so that my brain stops playing tricks on me about it.
Congrats! Job interviews are so hard for so many people. You've passed the hardest part!! Wishing you luck on the rest

Downwards spiral into anxious decompensation. Again. Now slowly climbing out of the hole. It's so fucking painful, but it gets better.

Downwards spiral into anxious decompensation. Again. Now slowly climbing out of the hole. It’s so fucking painful, but it gets better.
Sorry to hear it, bud
Anxiety is a motherfucker, even with medication it regularly wipes me out. Wishing you the best!!!
- Thank you for the kind words. I know this theoretically, but it's still a boon to hear I'm not alone occasionally fighting this beast.

The week is okay! My friend's elderly cat passed away last week after a months-long health struggle, and that's been eating up a lot of our emotional space. That cat quite literally saved my friend's life (from a suicide attempt), so we all hold a lot of love and gratitude for this sweet little lady that we lost. Yesterday evening our friend group had a little tea party in her honor and poured her ashes into a little sugar jar that my friend found while thrifting over the weekend. It's a hard time, but I feel closer to my friend than ever, and coming together as a group to support one specific friend always gives me a sense of community that fills up my own cup.

Rest well, Dodie

I've actually had a few cats keep me from killing myself. Living alone, you realize [answer to security question] will die if you aren't there to feed her.
What a sweetheart ❤️

I recently came back from a trip to Japan and S Korea and ended up getting COVID on the plane ride back. This is my 2nd time getting COVID and I'm happy it's much more mild than the first time I had it back in 2022.