How's your week been?
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It's been a hard 5 months, but I think the end is finally in sight. I've given up on seeking help from the medical system, I've been in the ER begging for help multiple times and all I ever got was a medical certificate.
Instead I'm working through my stuff one day at a time and relying on friends for help when I need it, it's hard but it's working. I'm having more and more good days, even if I'm still struggling.
Here are some wins:
It finally cooled off enough for the first time since June that i could get a single good nights sleep the other day. I slept in that morning with a window cracked open it was so comfy 🫠 naturally, some time next week has a forecast in the 90's again 😑
I've got about a month before i am legit unemployed (context) and getting worried about that. I have done absolutely nothing with the time off I've had from this, aside from starting to exercise regularly, actually happy about that. I had a list of things i wanted to accomplish and that's the only thing i actually did. I didn't use my medical insurance to get some form of treatment for ADHD, or go to the doctor for the first time in a decade for a basic checkup, and i doubt i could even get an appointment before my insurance runs out at this point.
I am on my way home from a very spicy weekend with a very spicy friend and I am still enjoying the afterglow :3 this world can indeed be wonderful and it can get better :3
Living the dream!
Oh definitely. If you had asked me a couple of years ago how I would imagine my life in the future I could not have predicted any of this haha. Pure trans joy.
Did some more hoop-jumping in order to get approved for SRS. It was the urology department today, where they prodded and probed me a bit, then handed me one of the weirder documents I've ever collected. Essentially:
☑ Boobs
☑ Dick
Everything is as expected.
Signed,
A Doctor.
🤷🏼♀️
Came out to my SO after watching Priscilla queen of the desert. She had no reaction beyond "please keep your penis, I like it." Other than that, she likes the idea of me with hips and boobs and is very supportive. Am going to talk to my doctor about it today.
Edit: been to the doctor and am getting a referral to a psychologist for diagnosis.
If you don't mind sharing: How did your SO's reaction/comment make you feel? Also, was her tone serious or more playful?
Relief. I didn't expect jubilation but there was always a chance she would have reacted negatively. But, she's pretty autistic and her tone was pretty deadpan, which looking back should have been what I expected.
Meh. Unexpectedly sick yesterday, which sucked. If I’m gonna be sick, can it at least be during the workweek so I can get out of work, instead of losing a weekend day?
Transition-wise, I’m antsy that the doc hasn’t called me back about making an appointment to start cryopreservation. I really want to start my E, but I can’t until I’m done with that, and it feels like every step takes forever. I already had to switch clinics once because of their poor communication. The little voice in my head says that the new place is slow-rolling me in hopes that I get frustrated and leave, because they don’t want to deal with a trans patient in the current political climate. But their website says that they are happy to work with trans patients, so I might just be catastrophizing.
Same as any other week. To be honest
My week has been good. I've been getting end-of-the-month shopping done.