Iโm really sorry if my mood lately is affecting anyone else. I used to tough things out, macgyver my way around problems or distract myself with projects but life has been really difficult for a long time now and I am struggling severely.
If I seem really fractious, getting upset at what seems like small things, or oddly rough/blunt in my manner it is not at you.
Her family went over to hers' on father's day to see why she wasn't picking up. She had a fall in the bathroom and hit her head. Apparently she'd been there for 2 days. She was only in her 30's. I really cannot imagine what that'd be like finding your daughter and sister that way.
I'm at a loss for words. edit and by that I mean shocked
Is the average teenage population really have a lack of respect?
Appointment booked for 7.30pm last night. Quick c++ basics lesson and homework help as a favour for my wife's classmate's kid. I never used c++ by trade so I spent some time getting familiar with it, and how to play Farkle.
7.30pm comes and the 17yo just bails and says they're having dinner, no apology. Wife and I were like, fuck it, dumped the appointment and went to sleep at 8pm.
Sent another message this morning reminding them to be there or cancel 4hr before, some notes and a reminder that they don't have enough time now, and don't chicken out. Straight up says they promise, no greetings.
Off for a drive in the country today. Fingers crossed I can still get petrol at under 190c this afternoon when I need to fill up. I do have a lock on 180c at 7/11, so if it has a massive jump I can at least get the 25c discount. These 40c+ jumps suck.
I'm doing an open day trial at a co-working space today as I seriously need to get out of the house at least one day during the week, full time WFH gets super monotonous and negatively affects my mood. As sad as this sounds, I was excited today to get dressed up and leave my house on a work day. The office I'm at is new and super nice, if a bit loud. It's nice to be around people during work time but nobody doing the trial (I think we're all sitting in the same area) is talking to one another? I'm not sure it's worth paying to use a co-working space where I just keep to myself, I can do that at home for free. I need to suss whether the place organises networking opportunities for members to mix, to make a membership worth it.
If the kids go down well enough tonight I think I'll go watch British Lion.
You have to respect Steve Harris' organisational skills to bring his side project along with his main band and play the Croxton one night, then Rod Laver the next. He's been playing stadiums for decades now, so there must be something humbling about playing such a comparatively smaller venue like the Croxton before the big show.
Woke up in sweat from a bad dream. Now the wind is keeping awake. I think the bad dream is a manifestation of some catastrophising Iโve been been doing lately over an issue.
15L of ginger brew. Hesitant to call it beer because the readings make no sense. Fucked up the temperature both directions. Meh if nothing else it will be tasty water to base punch on for party in a few weeks.
Antibiotics finishing soonโฆ relieved. With the normal routine of mixing meds into wet food morning and night, adding 2x daily antibiotics could have been easy.
Unfortunately bumping the pain meds to 3x daily for the uti spaced the doses out awkwardly and Melbcat stopped accepting medicated food, so Iโve been having to catch and wrestle her 5 times a day.
I have an appointment tomorrow so will be too tired then, but I plan to declutter and sort the bathroom next. The shower stool was a good idea in theory but is actually more of a space hog and a trip hazard.
Fell back asleep after waking up early for the first time in a long time. Thankfully I'll only be like five or ten minutes late to work, coulda been a disaster
I've been reading a book on Hoarding and watching some hoarding clean up videos and it's seriously making me think about my own tendencies to buy things and keep things.
I do ask myself now before buying if I actually need something , if what already have at home suffices and where would I keep it.
I also take into account if an item makes work. For example, husband wanted a coffee maker, I thought ok, a simple one that's easy to use and to clean and look after since I'm the one who does that. Not one that would take 20 minutes a day to upkeep. Nope,, he wanted one with all bells and whistles . I thought a simple drip coffee maker would suffice but husband wanted the "best". To me best includes how I am going to use it and how it fits into my life as a whole. I bought a press coffee maker which is a little fussy but not too bad.
I'm good at chucking stuff out or giving it away and have given up keeping stuff that needs repairs but takes too much effort. Overall I see it as I have had use out of an item and that is good, now I have no more use. I got my value from it. :)
Up northside for my haircut after ages and ICE CREAM SOCIAL IS PERMANENTLY CLOSED??!?!?!!!!!!! ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐๐๐๐๐๐ I see from insta it's for serious health reasons, totally understandable but... I miss being able to treat myself to a drop dead delicious slice of pie when I'm in this side of town. Their baked goods were truly sublime
Note to self: Never drive from the Ring Rd to the Eastern Fwy via Bulleen Rd. Ever.
That was not a fun route, in the dark and riddled with roadworks. Plus my GPS seemed to think I was a truck over 10m long as it tried to send me on a very inappropriate detour.
Oh my word.. so I have all of the flavours of shakes from https://healthyweightforlife.com.au/ and this morning I'm having "tropical banana" except I have been a little cheeky this morning and made it with milk instead of water, but still blended in some ice too.
It is legitimately a good shake. Not even 'good for a meal replacement shake' it's actually good. It tastes like a Barney Banana.
I fucking despise podcast bros. Every random person does not need their own podcast! They almost all seem to go something like this:
P1: "So, get this right, I was at the shops the other day..."
P2: "yeah?"
P1: "and this weird girl at the counter with purple hair did the dumbest thing"
P2: "Damn bro, what did she do"
P1: "Yeah so I go up to her yeah"
P2: "for real?"
P1: "and get this right, so I say to her 'I want a pack of whatever smokes are popular at the moment love'"
P2: "damn what did she say"
P1: "she said 'oh well I'll just need to see some ID first'
P2: "DAYUUUUUM"
P1: "And I'm like 'are you stupid? I'm clearly over 16', yeah?"
P2: "Damn exactly"
P1: "And the stupid cow had the audacity to say back 'Uhhh you have to be over 18 to buy smokes here dude'"
P2: "DAYUUUUUM THATS CRAZY BRO"
P1: "anyway it just got me thinking y'know, this is why women shouldn't be allowed to vote or leave the house... All they ever do is make bad assumptions and correct me about things she knows nothing about"
P2: "Yeah bro for real"
It's become a pathetic game to see who can say the most out of pocket stuff the fastest. And if that's not what they're doing, they just start commenting on things that they actually don't understand. It's ridiculous. I don't really watch YouTube shorts anymore, but on the odd occasion I do, they're everywhere. I hit the dislike button and scroll as fast as I possibly can. I don't stop to argue with them, or watch it on a loop trying to pick my jaw up off the floor, I try and move on as fast as humanly possible, but they always fucking come back
Watching the cross examination of Pamela Smart on YT (channel name is dreading), and I am losing my miiiiind, she is so stupid. Like, maybe, actually stupid. I cannot stop laughing ๐๐
God, I cannot believe people as stupid as her can take someone else's life. Least she'll never be released.
I'm onto the second dreading true crime video of dumb pam smart.
nothing is easy for a psycho, they always give long complicated reasons
the incredible thing about her testimony is that all the other members of the conspiracy independently confessed and it is so obvious she is just making shit up