Journal keepers of Lemmy: Do you go back and re-read old entries?

Seldom unless I want to revisit or check something specific. I think journaling is more about digesting things than documenting things.

I did this recently. I wanted to refresh my memory on how I dealt with a personal problem several years ago that seemed to be coming up again.

Surprisingly, the details that stuck with me the most over the years were pretty different from the details I focused on in my writing at the time. I remember going through a lot of problems at that time, and I give them pretty equal weight in my memory. But my writing was hyper-focused on one or two things, while everything else was kind of in the background.

Unfortunately, the issue I felt was coming up again recently was one of those things that was in the background in my writing. So I don't think the exercise was all that helpful for my initial goal.

Less surprisingly, my writing made me seem pretty cringe. I was expecting that, since I was looking back on a younger, dumber version of myself going through a hard time. But it's still a bit strange. Like, I thought I was acting as rationally as possible at the time, and I give myself a fair amount of credit for that looking back on it. But when I try to read from a more objective perspective, my missteps and character flaws are a lot more apparent.

Sorta makes me wonder which of my present-day actions will make me say, "What was I thinking..." in another 10 years.

Does syslog and journalctl count?

Sometimes but it's probably like once every five years or something. I'd rather not re read what I wrote, especially if it was about a real life event.

Most of my journaling is about dreams. I occasionally go back and read old entries when I get a dejavu feeling or if I suspect I've had a similar dream before. It's surprising to see how false the dejavu turns out to be, and how much I forget about what I wrote. And yeah going through all that nonsense can be a surreal/psychedelic experience lol, you don't do that every day.

My journal app has a feature for On This Day. I visit it sparingly. I have used it extensively in fits and spurts, so much so that I even added that functionality to my blog and started visiting it.

Stopped when it got too embarrassing. 😅

I started to journal about 3 months ago when my anxiety and depression started to get out of control. Sometimes I will go back and read the previous day or two to reflect on things, but that is it. Some of the stuff I wrote, especially at the beginning are too painful to go back and re-read now.

Post journal clarity. No thank you.

I've journalled for a few years in the form of a bunch of markdown files. Occasionally I'll read back or search for things to help remember things I'm not recalling clearly.

I don't keep journals but I do read some of my old whatsapp chats from time to time. Helps that I still have mine from 2013. Just a fun way to look back at what was going on in my life at that point in time, or to see how my relationships with people have changed over the years.

With my mental health journal, no, never.

For my hobby journal, all the time! It's neat to see how my tastes and activities have evolved, and sometimes when things get frustrating it's good to have the reminder of why I loved doing it in the first place.

Absolutely. Sometimes I'll just pick a point at random and read forward or back from there.

I rarely do. My life has been such to give me little incentive to go through it in any degree again.

Kept a journal for the last 20 years and I write maybe a million words a year. I don't read old entries because I don't have time!

I’m a Thelemite, and journal writing is kind of a big deal in our religion. Not only do I review my own journal for insights about myself, but I also occasionally have other trusted Thelemites take a look at it to give me feedback. It has been one of those tools that I originally thought wouldn’t be useful, and then turned out to be invaluable.

That isn’t to say that I journal constantly though. Sometimes I’m good and do it all the time, but then I may go several weeks to months with nothing. Remembering to write tells me something about my mental state, and not writing also tells me something about my mental state, and all of that is a useful tool to understand yourself better.

The times that my journal has become fuel for my own self loathing, I have found it useful to talk to other people about what they’ve been writing in theirs. Once you take a peek into another persons interior world, you realize that we all have our own struggles and all fail sometimes—that realization, that you are no better or worse than anyone else, can be extremely powerful.

For anyone who is interested and doesn’t know what Thelema is, here is a useful link. There are dozens of us! Dozens!

https://www.thelema101.com/intro

And 93’s to my fellow weirdos who do know what it is.

Sometimes, although I usually don't write that often, unless it's a dream or something emotionally significant since that's what my therapist recommended journaling for.

When I look back on entries it's usually to revisit a dream a/o interpretation, or thoughts about/experiences I had with people who aren't an active part of my life anymore

Yes, but it's been more than 6 months since I've written in mine. I used it mainly to document my life and deal with mental issues. The past six months have been mostly daily struggles and ordinary life so I've had no incentive to go back and journal. I should fix this, grab the keyboard and resume!

The closest thing I have are my online profiles from Reddit and now here. And yep, I do read back on my conversations for the most part as it's the closest thing I have, I suppose.

While it doesn't quite fit what an actual journal is, it is interesting to read back and remember what my state of mind was or what I knew at the time I wrote what I did. Of course, like anyone else, I run the full gambit from being insightful to being stupid.

I did use another profle for when I quit drinking. I used it as an actual journal to document what I was feeling and what I was going through. So, it helped me and I think it helped others that read it.

I don't know if my journaling is the same kind of journaling you're thinking of. For me, it's kind of like a log of scientific experiments. There's various problems that I'm trying to work through, and I'll keep track of how I'm doing relative to those problems in my journal along with whatever solution I'm trying to implement. Figuring out whether something helps or not relies on going back and reading old entries to find trends.

I keep something similar to a journal, except i get rid of every entry shortly after writing it. Thus, its more or less impossible to re-read my shit

I journal to process thoughts, feelings, and problems, so I often go back to try to help me "figure things out." It's a double-edge sword sort of situation. Like it really lays bare the fact that certain problems I've made zero progress on over the years, but on the other hand, it's helps me realize other places where I've made way more progress than I would have thought.

If you've ever seen the Black Mirror episode where they're able to record their memories and play them back, it can be a little like that. An argument with the wife? I can pull back every. single. time. she's done "that" before. I think that's probably not good.

Anyway, overall, when I come away from reading past journal entries I tend to feel a lot more calm and humble.

Oh yes, definitely.

It wasn't always the case. I started Journaling as a means to recover my mental health. The initial entries were really dark and I don't read them often, perhaps less than once a year.

After I recovered, I started using it as a logbook for my own life. Initially I only just wrote events happening around me, or interesting world events, but soon I was writing my own desires to improve myself.

That's when it really kicked off for me. Till now about 2 years had passed since I started Journaling. I would write about something I wished to change about myself, like reducing soft drink consumption, quitting cigarettes, or just changing my behavior a certain way. Gradually I would write about how I could go about realizing it, eventually I would do it.

Reading back I can see that today I am totally different from me a year ago. It's really fascinating to me and it has helped me to stay way ahead of my mental health. I was able to recognize a relapse in my depression and address it accordingly.

I started a journal a few years ago because I found myself forgetting a lot of events. I gotta say, I havent really gone back to reread it yet. I dont think enough time has passed, really.

Yes, usually with -p 3 flag.

Sometimes. But it's rare.

I can't, it's in secret code (my handwriting is atrocious :)
But like others said, it would be good to take up the habit again. Plenty of things going on in my life where I could benefit from a little reflection.