Too adhd/social anxiety ridden to go out and meet people, apps are terrible, but it's for the best, because one of the very few times I actually had contact with someone they gave me herpes, and I'm way too depressed to be around. So, uh, yeah, I need help but it's not like anyone really can help. It'd be lovely to be intimate with someone again but I'd feel bad for anyone I let close enough for that. Sorry, overly depressing, you just kinda caught me during a crash and I'm desperate to let it out somewhere.
Es ist echt nicht schwer. Du schneidest Gemüse (ich nehme meist Karotten und Möhren und Zwiebeln und Lauch) klein und wirfst es in einen Topf mit kochendem Wasser. Dann gibst du in den gleichen Topf eine Menge Nudeln (so viel du magst - ich empfehle 250g) und wartest so lange wie es auf der Packung der Nudeln steht dass es dauert. Dann nimmst du einen Handschuh und gießt das Wasser durch ein Sieb, damit das Feste trocknen kann. Fertig. Gerne mit Olivenöl und Kräutern (Petersilie, getrocknete Kräutermischungen) verfeinern.
Orgasms and food are a waste of time that just makes me feel uncomfortable and I only waste my time with it when it's absolutely necessary. And even then, the faster it's over, the better (even if I might enjoy it in the moment).
People keep saying it's the best thing ever and i'm incredibly confused by that
Even though I do feel more okay with eating a bunch, I too feel people are overhyping this orgasm thing. Like, ew, no thanks. Literally every time I decide Okay, the time has come again, I should probably do it now I think Woah, I could be programming something interesting now, but no, my body wants to fuck. Great.
I do understand the connection to eating things too though. It feels unnneccessary and like some thing you just gotta do sometimes cuz u gotta do it I guess.
Spoken like we share a brain. "ok but I could be productive"
Tho I do feel like it might be a little better if I would get bottom surgery but that's quite a bit in the future. For now i'm just happy that estro killed almost all of my drive.
I just internalized the fact that I'm anorexic because everyone told me I am but without any psychologist/therapist ever diagnosing me with it. Thank you so much for showing me that something that describes me so perfectly exists ;-;