Now is the time to narrow my view, focus in on my own world, school, partner, Mickey, coffee, chocolate, beer. I don't want to know about the world anymore, not for a while. I can't let this drag my mood down. I have good things in my life idc about anything else lol
So thereโs now literal children buying anti-aging products like retinol and thereโs a hair disclosing spray so women can completely defuzz their whole faces?
People are getting preventative Botox and giving themselves gastroparesis by using Ozempic and 20 year olds are either removing the fat from their cheeks or getting fillers? Celebrities with slightly crooked teeth are getting full veneers or caps?
Earlier periods of history got a bad reputation for their rigid beauty standards and rightfully so but I feel like itโs all much more out of control now because internet. Modern beauty standards are insane.
World news aside, I've finished my first day at the new job. I think I need to get past induction and do some actual work, and start working from home, before I can decide if this was the right choice.
I think it will be. I need to remember how shit my old work was, even before things for really bad. Once I get started I won't wish I got things right in the old role, because even when things were working, they were just barely, and things were still shit
My cat's heart isn't working well and he doesn't have a great prognosis, but he's well and happy in himself and I'm focusing on that. We'll be ok.
I've just ordered takeaway for the first time in yonks. Fried goodness is now on the way to me and in the meantime I've poured a glass of wine. I will enjoy it and not wallow.
And I'm putting my fingers in my ears and ignoring the news out of the US.
Jesus Christ I HATE watching this US news, but I cant look away! Some folks are already calling it and I think I might throw up. Thats not a joke or an exaggeration.
Just as a little moment of grounding... What are we all having for dinner on this sombre evening? I gotta use up my other half tin of coconut cream, so I'm going to do a rich tomato curry with tvp balls that I also need to use up. Along with the leftover everything-in-one veggie and dal curry and boiled eggs my aunt gave me.
top comment on The Daily Show summary video is "I Prey for Ukraine". No words for the feeling of when that registers in your mind. I hadnt even consdidered.... Will the EU step up? God. I just.... those poor people.
I really cbf making this potato salad but I know future me will appreciate it when I hear "What's for dinner?" And I get to answer "it's in the fridge. Help yourself".
So I put in a request to cancel my group fitness membership after the next billing. Will check out the local council gym and also another one to try and get my mum to come along.
Iโm very dismayed by the US election result. I wouldnโt have been shocked at a trump win, I thought it would be close so was a possibility. But was not mentally prepared for a such a large margin. So many Americans want this? I would like to think they didnโt understand what they were really voting for. I have a sinking feeling thinking about what the next four years might have ahead both for Americans, and globally for places like Ukraine and the Middle East.
I want to buy more seeds and garden stuff but the moneyโฆ the limited number of pots and the invasive grassโฆ the fact that it might get stolen or the garden destroyed/raidedโฆ
I had a bunch of random fruits shoveled into my bag at the free food market today. Including gold kiwi fruit that I don't really like, so this afternoon's job will be kiwifruit chutney. I'll also chop up the peaches for the freezer (they are generally a bit bruised and not great for eating fresh).
I also got some chicken to roast and lots of salad kits, so meal prep has pretty much sorted itself out for the next few days!
I'm undecided on whether or not I should cancel my gym membership and switch to the council instead. The gym I'm currently at is a group fitness gym which is a highly motivating and supportive environment, and great for making sure I see people considering I don't really have a third space besides school and work. However, I miss going to a gym with machines and the council one has a pool. Plus it's cheaper. Only the social aspect missing. I think it's a case of loss aversion here.
I should add that I'm not using it as often as I like to get value out of it.
Got a huge nosebleed on the train, so that was fun. Spent a few minutes looking like I'd come fresh from the exorcist.
Forgot to take a photo, but a bee landed on me and started cleaning herself, which was cute. Had to relocate her with a spare tissue so she didn't get on the bus, but was otherwise the highlight of the day.
I've finally started at the new job. Let me know if you're having trouble with your employer, I can send them an email that should scare them into shape.
I'm working for the sort of government department departments wouldn't want to hear from, as long as they don't dig too deep and look at my job title
I'm trying to explain to the cat that he can't have breakfast because the nice vet is going to give him medicine to go to sleep and do some special scans.
He's just looking at me with his trusting little face, like ok that's fine but can we have chicken now please? I did tell you I'm hungry?
Having a side path done. Two nice blokes. Their first question: "What are the parking inspectors like around here?". I hadn't had enough coffee yet so I'm like "what?" Took me way too long to understand that question. I is not prepared for that sort of question at 7:30am.