Gotta find that equilibrium

The time to find this equilibrium has passed. I'm already depressed and nihilistic

Aka the difference between pushing voter apathy suppression propaganda online or actually helping.

The will to fight? I'm treading the line for will to live most of the time.

I wish we could send the religious fanatics to another land and let them set whatever rules they want for themselves. Leave the rest of us alone.

Therapy helps

Try to find a reason to act that isn't outrage, that isn't healthy

Fuck me, that's so true

And as a result you don’t balance them, but rather average them. Most days you’re depressed and nihilistic, but occasionally you manage to find a nice big cup of hate to give you energy to go out and hurt a member of the villain class, er I mean do good in the world. /s

Good job left wing. Glad to see you’re starting to understand the problem.

Right in the feels.

Breaking through the exhausted nihilism to find the secret second layer of righteous outrage

I’d say the trickiest part is knowing exactly what will happen (in the grand scheme of things, ofc. clairvoyance in the meme sense), then see it happen and having no power to stop it at all.

And seeing all the people around you post-justify every shitty thing that happened through the lens of a mystical ideology of either conservatism or liberalism.

While you’re like: but remember I said this was gonna happen because of x, y and z material conditions?

And you can see their selfs shutdown behind their eyes. And they go back to just repeating their same old talking points and sound bites and “memes”.

Yeah this actually explains a lot I have been going through.

At what point of leftism do you take a step back, take a deep breath, and ask yourself "is this really what life was meant to be about?"

I’ve always found clearing all the purity tests online leftists ask you to jump through to be the tricky part