PTSD and CPTSD are very real and very damaging. Get the help you need without feeling shame. Nobody bats an eye if you go to a doctor for a physical ailment; mental issues should be treated with the same understanding.
Ugh. Took my kids to their school for schedule meet and greet. Saw kids who looked like the ones who bullied me when I was their age and all the emotions and memories came flooding back. These are kids 1/3rd my age and strangers, they have no power over me and yet I felt messed up.
Serious answer: they have an on and off event called depressing comics week, we're instead of telling jokes with dark humor, they just create dark scenarios that aren't funny at all.
Why? It is done intentionally to see if they can successfully create scenarios that make people sad. Which is all things considered actually a healthy exercise for someone who regularly engages in dark comedy to do. Helps them remember where the line needs to be kept in order to keep things funny.