Ive had a hard life that i dont really want to talk about especcialy online, so ive be feel depressed an unmotivated for a bit now. i heard exercising helps but is that true where do you even get motivation to start working out? i do bascily the same things everyday and i just want to do more in my life because its getting bland-er... also if you want to share a short life story go ahead, i feel im more in the idea department/creative department but yet i do nothing and my head i cloaded with life. i feel like i should put more here but ill just leave it here.

I have trouble finding english manga actually i havent found any online yet, most places are for books or in something i cant read. manga is pricey so i thought i could maybe print my own for personal use and to learn a new skill but that seems dumb, either way i want to read manga.

i dont want to download one chapter at a time i would rather want to download one book at a time becasue of ocd. my librairy tends to be out of manga most of the time and have a long waitlist.

also i did read the wiki but most sites dont have what im looking for and i cant read them becasue there not in english, im looking for manga like, one punch man, all you need is kill, bleach?, etc.

So i have (i think) no mucical talent becasue in school i was always bad at music classes and was behind compared to others also i coudent stand all the noises going on. im not sure why but i wanted a keyboard pinao becasue i like the way they sound, once i got one i tried to have some folks teach me but i imeditly got overwhelmed by eveything that goes into playing an instument.

so by chance is there an affordbale instrument for beginner that can be worked on also what can one do once they learn an instument? is it just a skill to show off to others? i pretty much stink at everything but im trying to improve at life or my life more like it. i was thinking of writting songs or doing covers but im not entirly sure how that works.

my hobbys/interests often change often but thats normal (hopefully) and hopefully no one is getting annoyed by me.

ive only really had fish but ther enothing close to a buddy like, something like a dog or a cat. pets are also pricey and im allergic to cats and dogs plus my home is kinda messy. i do wish i could get something besides a fish but you know it is what it is.

so what type of pet do you have or what is the best type of pet to have?

im still debating wether i start a peertube channel or not, and im no pro but we all have to start somewhere. ive aksed variouse family member si know if i should do some sort of video content creation. i was thinking gaming but there are so many genres im not sure plus i have school and im worried it might make my life more stressful. does anybody here have experience with peertube, if so feel free to share something in the comments if possible. i also have somewhat of a low end pc that can manly run old titles and 2d games.

how do you even find motivation to keep posting video after video?

so is starting a peertube worth it or is now a good time to start?

so i have depression, i take meds and i talk with people about it but im also bored/empty alot and i just want something to do that is diffrent, if that makes sense. i havent read a book in quite some time and im considerd a slow reader becasue im dylexic and i lack motivation. i feel if i find a good book to help with this it might help witha few things.

i dont want a super duper brick sized book or horror, im more into anything but that also fiction like fantasy, sci-fi, cyberpunk, something that feels modern also manga but manga is more exspensive than a book, etc just no horror or anyhting weird.

also where is a good place to get physical books from at a discount?

So what goes into writting a book, can anyone do it, ive been wanting to do many things for a while but i think sense i was a kid i wanted to write a book or even a short story or something that i can publish. the thing is i have major dylexia, i tend to not plan things and instead write on the spot, also i have partiall ideas. i dont want to write fanfic but instead i want to do something more orginal. i was told i was a creative writter as a kid but im not sure about now.

im not even sure if writting a book is worth it or not i raley even read but yet i feel like something is missing in life. is there by chance a good youtube video that explains all of this?

your a side charatcer in a bad/hard anime but you dont want to be in it, what anime would that be and what would you do? also you have all you knowlege of the anime you have watched.

What are your thoughts on steam key sites? have you even bought a key from sites like g2a? are they a scam or are they cool, also do you have a story to share about steam keys.

i was planning on getting a mystery pack from g2a or whatever its called but im not sure if its a scam or not.

I ask this before (somewhere?) but most suggest paid games for some reason, im not sure why.

are there some free games from itch or steam to play when one has freetime to do things? and someday i might start recording gamplay videos, maybe it really depends on how life goes.

can you make whatever or are there rules to peertube, and why does everyone say its better than youtube? I want to make gameplay videos someday but i wasnet sure if i should use peertube, youtube, or some other thing.

what are the best peertube channels?

or would it be better to just watch videos on there?

also i could use advice on peertube/youtube or something of that nature.

So im looking for things i can make or do that dont invole a compute ror my phone, i feel like i need to stop staring at a screen as much. i dont have money either and ive been wanting to go to craft fairs but im not sure what to make or how to not look at a screen as much.

also i have depression so i lack motivation to do anyhting, but i want to be motivated im just not sure where to start also i tend to repeat questions because in a werid way, that helps me learn, but it seems to annoy others.

So ive been thinking about using godot or gdevelp but im not too sure if those are teh right ones for a beginner to use. im not sure why but i want to make a video game, i dont even have an ideas but i want to make one for some reason. once i get a better computer which will be in a few days hopefully i think i might use unity, maybe.

i could use suggestions, advice, tips, you can even share a story if you want to. ive made a few posts before and everyone says to download blender to make things with and then use godot becasue its open source and low end.

I know there is runescape and albion but is there anything else, or are those the only small file sized ones for pc?

most mmorpgs take up like 50gb+ of storage which i dont understand, are there any smaller file sized one or retro ones that are still playable? is so feel free to suggest some and what makes them so good. i like mmorpg i just dont have the storage for them.

So im about to get a new laptop, its no the best but it will be diffrent, currently i have a desktop so a laptop i will be able to move around with.

Its a windows laptop with 12gb of ram, 250 storage, so im hoping its good becasue i got this laptop on the cheaper end becasue its refurbished acording to amazon.

anyways what are some of the first things to do with a laptop besides setting it up and what are some cool uses, i have some ideas on how i might use the laptop but i want to hear what yall have to say.

What are the best fediverse alternatives to youtube? and what makes them so good, what are the rules? are they all open source?

ive been wanting to start gaming videos but youtube is youtube you know.

I feel very lost and confused, all i do is dream but i just cant bring myself to do things or i "rage out". Im a highschooler and i feel like nobody understand my like im a shadow i know there are other like me but i seem to never be able to find them. i have meds and i recently started consuling but i just feel like i need to do more or somethign is misisng. i tend to be hard on myself and idk why but i want to make a game still even though i cant code for the life of me and i dont even have any ideas. its like some form of extreme writters block.

im pretty limited in life and i was always treated like an outcast and i have autism, dylexia, possibly adhd and i want to scream and cry but it like i have no mouth,words, or tears. i want my life to be better and i have many dreams but im just not sure where to start or even what to do, and this all might change soon-ish like my dreams. i hate being depressed i just want to be happy but i keep having moods and hormones and random hornyness i hate it, i cant stop thinking about my past mistakes aswell.

also please do not dm me keep everything in the comments and dont suggest i call so and so.

I feel like my life and how i act is always a "meh" thingy, if that makes sense. i just feel like something is missing or im lacking in life and i tend to complain alot online, but why?

i want to be creative/get my ideas out there but im not sure how to aprouch it or do so. im going thru a hard persiod in my life with dealing with emotions, mood swings, hormones, and life.

Things like movies, books, games, songs, etc just what was the best one you even experienced that you kinda wish you could do for the first time again, also what made it so good?

I want to have fun bu ti also wan tmoney and im not sure which one to focus emor eon becasue i need money but im also bored.

i have autism, dxylexyia, depression, and possibly adhd also my allergys are bad and i take meds for most of this stuff. sense im depressed i feel like i stink at mos tthings or i lack something, or just something is missing. my family says i cant get a job intill a get thru highschool but im not sure if that will happen, so i might have to do a sidehustle of sorts. im very limited like my pc isint "modern" i have derpession and whatnot but i do want to do something while i still can, but im not sure.

sorry if this become too long, also i tend to post content like this alot but i seem to only listen to myself also i hate hormones and mood swings. i feel like my family dosent understand me even if i just screamed at them i feel they still woudent understand anything.