For what it's worth, free IQ tests are notoriously bad for evaluating general intellectual capacity, and tend to evaluate visual pattern recognition.
On top of that, you can learn how IQ tests are evaluated and score higher on them in a matter of seconds.
For example:
The answers are in the diagonals.
For this example, on the diagonals are the number of dots.
For this example, on the diagonals are the arrow directions.
Having this knowledge can easily boost your IQ score by 10.
In any case, intellect has many different facets; memory retention, memory recall speed, emotional intelligence, motivation, visual/spacial, verbal, etc.
There are people who are Mensa certified geniuses who can't hold a conversation to save their lives, or boast to others about their score, which is... really dumb.
How did you find out about Lemmy? It seems it's mostly a niche place for tech nerds and commies and you don't seem to be either? Also what keeps you here? Wouldn't the NPD push you towards more popular platforms?
Sorry for asking so many questions - your experience sounds very unique and you actually seem very eloquent and thoughtful.
An important aspect to remember about IQ scores is that they are not meant to be a measure of how intelligent you are, but more about how you process information and, thus, how easily/quickly you learn new information. You’re still “intelligent,” it may just take you a little longer to “get it” when learning new things, though. That’s ok, as long as you’re learning!
Also remember that an IQ score is a predictor of performance, not a limit.
What do you do for work? What level of education have you completed? Were the results a surprise? And most importantly, has it affected your self-esteem at all, or do you know how little an IQ test actually means? (As an example, I've taken a few for fun and got about double your score each time, but I haven't finished college and was a B- student at best).
I've personally known PhD's with learning disabilities who excelled where others did not. They told me, independently from each other, that it was determination and hard work that got them ahead of everyone else, not intelligence. They simply worked harder than everyone else. It's not intelligence that gets you ahead, it's the effort that you put into it.